I'm so sorry you're having a difficult time. Please don't face your struggles alone. If you do not have close friends or family members around with whom you can share your feelings, please seek the help of a counselor. I'm praying that the Lord will mend your brokenness, heal your wounds, and fill the empty spaces in your heart. He can work in amazing ways, and I trust that you’ll sense how much He loves you in the coming days.