Lord. I am feeling hopeless and alone. I have lost my fiancé. My job. My health. My home. My money. My friends.

A year and a half ago my heart was ripped in two when my fiancé cheated on me and left me for someone else. I became homeless and in January I injured myself and have been in and out of hospital since. In this last year and a half I have suddenly become allergic to antibiotics... tore my MCL... been diagnosed with Diverticulitis and a Redundant sigmoid colon. Every day I spend in agony. I can't take any painkillers to help and the outcome for this condition isn't great.

I then lost my job in September... leaving me alone, homeless and broke.

I need some help seeing the silver lining. I need some help to see there is a way out. My life is falling into darkness and the thoughts I am having are leaning towards suicide.

I'm scared I'm being punished.