Prayers for my mother, she was feeling sick past few days, her leg swelling up and I think fluid. Had low blood pressure and went to hospital in ambulance today. Prayers she gets better. Prayers she us or gets saved. Prayers God gives me peace and takes away knots in my stomach, afraid of having a melt down, sorry don't mean to be selfish. A big part of my life, maybe too big is my mother, she moved in here to help me financially and help with kids since husband moved out and getting a divorce. Prayers for my sister and brother, I'm sure he's a wreck worrying about our mother.
Sad to say I guess but my mother is closest person to me, other friends have disappeared over the years, my marriage is over and I am sah mother and no career. I feel everything falling apart worse then before. Been a wreck since yesterday with all these celebrity deaths everywhere and my mom was sick, it made me feel she's go in to die soon and I went into depressed sad and lonely state realizing I have no one and no career to take care if myself like a big baby, sad and pathetic. Made me feel guilty for my resentment coward my mom and not realizing how bad it could be to lose my mother like other people. My friend lost her husband and mother past five years and she's always miserable, I feel worse for her now that I fear losing my mother not just because of financial situation but emotionally. Prayers for my mom, family and please pray yet again that I can get some ki d of career to be able to be financially independent and not end up destitute and homeless, can't depend on mom or soon to be ex to help out. Pray for peace. I'm 49 and need to restart my life. Went from home to husband, low paying odd jobs, husband bread winner. Need help bad. I'm scared.