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I realize you've been through a lot and that you are quite angry with God. However, look at the life of Job. I think very few people, if any have gone through what he did. He asked many questions, but he never got an answer as to why God allowed the trials in his life. He lost his health, his wealth, and his children. All I can say is that we live in a fallen world and look at Matthew 5. It says that Lord sends rains on the just and the unjust and blessings on the just and the unjust.

Your mom's death is not a proof that God's promises aren't true. It's a matter of the Lord's will. We are all appointed once to die and then the judgement. I realize you feel justified in your anger, but you need to lean upon the Lord more than ever.

There's an article that may help you. It's on herchristianhome.com and it's this week's devotion.

I have felt disappointed in the Lord and angered. I was angry when a friend of mine rejected Christ. I had been praying for him to be saved and I knew in my soul that the day he went to church with me was the day he was meant to be saved. He was heavily convicted, but ultimately he walked out of that church unchanged. I grew angry at God, when it was my friend's fault. But I blamed God. I fell into sin and I still have the scars today. I lost that friend, I lost credibility as a witness to him and countless others and there's not a day that goes by that I don't regret my choices.

Don't allow your anger at God to do the same to you. I don't know if any of this has helped but I hope you don't lose your way.