(12-05-2016 12:04 AM)AKB Wrote:  First I want to thank you for the hope and support you offer with this website and for your love and devotion for the Holy Spirit.
I ask you to please pray for me in my time of need.
I have sinned many times in my life but never have the consequences been so great. I have reached my bottom and risked everything in my world recently. Never have I ever felt so lonely, ashamed and afraid. I am praying the Lord will save me from this mess I am in. I am worried my health my be in jeopardy as well as the health of some others close to me because of my wrong doings. The worry I feel I do great I can barely sleep. Every thought is filled with fear and concern. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this without some sign that things will be ok. I have even been thinking of suicide lately which is never something I've really thought of before and it's scary.
I know that I sinned and for that I am terribly sorry and I ask for forgiveness. I am a GOOD person and I have a GOOD heart. I hope that the lord will see this and offer me redemption. I am forever changed because of this experience. It has made me see things so much more clearly and I have so much more appreciation and gratitude for my life and for the people who I love and who love me back.
I know that if God allows me to get through this and come out unscathed I will never forget his graciousness and kindness. I will make him proud and live the life I've always been meant to live but have been to afraid to live.
Please please pray for my health and for redemption for me.
God Bless

2 Corinthians 5 17 Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things pass away; behold, all things have become new.

God has forgiven you, you must forgive yourself. Keep your eyes upon Jesus, even in the hard times. He does not promise no hard times, but promises to carry us through the hard times.