Please try not to lose hope. While it is difficult enduring the trials that bring brokenness, God knows the work he must do in your life. He who began a good work in you knows how to complete it. Jesus left us the Holy Spirit to help us in our weakness. The same immense power that raised Christ from the dead lives in the heart of of every believer. All that we face is the driving force bringing us closer to God. His ways are higher than ours. He knows the length of your days and has your next step prepared for you.