I feel like I died today, died to myself. The life I was always aspiring to have seems to have been lost forever. I also took a bad hit from sports and cannot breathe, feeling like totally broken. I have faith and believe it is all for the glory of God, so that new life of Christ can be manifest. But my fiancee is totally confused, because I was praying a lot about something important and made a decision based on what I have heard from God. Now everything has changed. it means she would have to quit her job and move to another country, because we live in different countries. I am scared