God are you there?
I pray for your strength I don't want to kill myself but I can't take another day. I'm dying inside I miss her terribly. She doesn't call, text, or communicate with me now and it's killing me. My divorce and now losing her at the same time I can't do this. I can't I have Google how to kill myself all morning.
She had an affair with me, used me hurt me and I have lost everything she hasn't lost anythinh. She has all the power still. She cheated on her husband last Sunday but goes to church saying she is walking with the Lord?
I don't understand God are you there? Why do u let her get away with everything and punish me so badly. I lost myself and I do t know if you exist because how can my God allow me to hurt as badly as I have these last 5 months and continue to bless the person who has hurt me?
God I need to hear from her today. I need her to let down her wall. I need her in my life or I have to kill myself I have to. I can't take another week like last week I will not make it. I have no friends no family and the one person I prayed for hates me now. She won't even try to talk to me
I'm lost and it's dark help come into my heart and help me or show me the way to die