Feel husband about to move into house next door with girlfriend soon, had a friend of theirs, maybe plumber (?) Over there looking at bathrooms in house, from what I think I heard with their whispering when they are in our home. They have friends from their AA meetings helping them and supporting them. Also has his families support since our marriage always bad and me and his family not very close. Haven't heard from father in law and his wife who claim to be saved inalmost two years, no calls to see how I'm doing or offers of financial help in future for grandkids if I get custody, they also hang out with "happy couple" like other relatives even though we're not divorced yet. Could have waited till then and husband has taken kids out with gf past 15 months and hangs out with her in our house. She's even cooked for us. It would be nice if somebody in his family or friends spoke out against this at least for kids sake even if they're not crazy about me or angry at me for going online June 2014 and telling family about things he's done over years besides drinking first six years of our marriage to defend myself because he made me look like a mentally unstable witch (hes dine these things: porn, gambling, couple of foreclosure proceedings on home, 3/4 women besides current one). Of course I've been angry, stressed and sad with all that but not crazy. He's even made me feel like bad parent but he hasn't been around much to help out even on days off. My mom hasn't moved in yet to help out even though she doesn't have a lot of money, I don't even have minimum wage job, and even if I get child support I don't think it's financially possible to make it and pay all the bills; buy clothes and groceries and pay for busfare. Not many buses around and getting to job will probably be rough. No car also means never going out socially. I really need to get out and have fun once in a while and would like to take kids out, not just my husband and gf taking them out. My husband makes around $4000 or more a month and things sometimes are tight now, if I make $400- 900 a month on minimum wage and MAYBE mom contributes $1000 a month and probably less than $1000 in support IF I get custody. How could we possibly survive on that?? My mom said she would help me which is pathetic on my part being 48 years old but she's losing her house and if she had hard time there how can she help me and kids???!!! Sometimes she doesn't have phone service! I'm so scared. I know its not my husband's fault I have no career/training but how could he leave knowing I am not financially independent???! Is that selfish of me to say since our marriage horrible for 15 years?? I just want to be financially independent to make it on own, take care of my kids and not be a leech in my poor 72 year old mother. God bless her. She could get low income senior housing in decent building, have cute little apartment that is affordable. Our mortgage is "usually" around $800 a month, plus around $150 water bill, electricity has been around $250 a month lately, these kids use so much electricity and son is a brat who won't turn things off, gas bill could be $309/400 in winter. Unless a miracle happens I can't make it. Feel bad for my mom also, her bills would be so much lower and only for her use. Food also. I can't even get low income housing because my credit is trashed, thanks in part to husband, he was paying credit cards and stopped when he decided to divorce me and all cards canceled, also pays mortgage late and behind. My name on mortgage. Worried about kids with crazy home now and also if live with unsaved husband and girlfriend. Church and welfare not much help . I really need a miracle. Soon.