Lord I come to you as your daughter in need of guidance, wisdom, peace, love and stability. My life has been a rollercoaster ride for long I dont know I I'm coming or going. I feel like the more good I do the more bad comes my way, I always sit back when I'm alone and try and remember what in my life have I done so wrong to feel like I'm living in hell 24/7. I did have a child out of wedlock when I was 16yrs old my father abandoned me when I was a toddler now at 34yrs old I still dont exist to him and I have no clue why! I go on his son's facebook page and look at all the pictures of him and his dad wondering what it would have been like to have him in my life do they think of me and my well being do he care or love me like he loves his son. My heart is so heavy and I in constant mental and sometimes physical pain I've been gang raped and left pregnant I have a son who has no idea that he was a product of a drugged and raped mother I dont know how to tell him that I was abused like that and from this he has no father or the fact that his father is a Rapist! I get down on my knees and beg the lord to help me from this hole I have fallen into my financial situation is to the point of being homeless with nowhere to turn. I cry all the time because I am lost I am hurt I'm used and abused! I'm struggling lord and I don't have a clue what to do. My husband tries so hard but he hardly makes any money working long hours I mean 14hr days but only getting paid for 8 cause he works for family and instead of helping us there hurting and taking advantage of us. My kids have to watch their peers enjoy there youth with new clothes and shoes, video games etc. While I make promises to them knowing I cant compete. Please pray for my family and I because my head is everywhere right now with unimaginable thoughts! I just want to be financially stable, a good wife and mother lord I want to be HAPPY. Help me please I have almost reached my limit.