Somedays i want to live other day's i want to die. Infertility hurts so bad wanting a child so bad. Been praying for years adoption didn't work. How could something like this happen to me why god? Always getting my hopes up only to be let down. Tears.... want a child with all my heart. Help me to stay strong god it hurts everyday. Almost every moment i hurt. I try to take my mind off of it but the desire to have a child never goes away. It's a pain that never seems to end. I pray someday that it doesn't hurt anymore hod please set me free.