I remember the words, Be bold, be strong... Fear not... but I am still afraid. Then I see thats because i have not been obeying the commands all along, tho i read and repeat them in my head, even singing them. Forgive me, God. But i am so afraid, and we're said to be our worst enemy when we choose wrong, when out hearts are not right. i am afraid of people, who You give to live with and love. i'm afraid i dont know how to love. God, I thought i called on You as a child, thru the yrs growing up too, but now even my son challenges and says i know, but do i believe? I regret so much, but do i repent? Touch, and heal this heart and mind, i ask, God. Let me not make excuses, and dont let this light in me be darkness. Stop me believing deceptions. am i more afraid of what others will say, and not You, our Maker? help me i pray to put it all behind, to run straight to ward the goal with Jesus.