God, when I thought i have received Jesus in my childhood, but now very confused because i have not followed and loved as You have taught. Have mercy, God, even my children who i prayed with to accept You, do not seem to remember they have committed their lives to You and now pursue worldly songs, pleasures and otehr things. I see strife and not unity among brethren who truly love You and theyre not going the way they should go, and the more confused and afraid i am. I plead for true humility in us, your healing and deliverance, mercy too.