Lord, did I not know these words? Forgive me when I search for other helps. Once an officemate said how hard-headed she was. And I thought, then why doesn't she change? Then You showed me that I am in fact so, and need to change as well. I do not know how, I am so weak, and scared and disobedient still. Please, God, what should I do aside from bowing down and asking. Help me have faith again, to trust You with all my heart. Let these be not words alone but reality, I plead.