I have been apart from Brian a few years now. I now take care of my elderly mother and my recent reconcile with him over text has made me feel I still care deeply. I don't know if he is feeling the same way and I wake up everyday with heartache and I know its affecting my moods and how I am to care for my mom. I don't neglect her I just feel that I want to be alone. I love my mom and I don't want to become bitter or angry. Please ask god to come into my heart and mind and give me the release of the ill feelings I have. If he doesn't want me to be in love with Brian please release me from the heartache and loneliness. I feel I have been a good person to him and feel he and I should have stayed together I just don't know if he feels the same way. I don't know which way god wants me to go please ask for direction wisdom and discernment to be blessed upon me