Jesus Christ I'm begging you right now . I've been praying to you a lot and I just need your help . All of your help all of you . To strengthen my heart , my soul , my mind an body Jesus Christ . I'm miserable , I'm in pain and hurting . And all I want is Noah back . I know I've being doing stupid stuff like sinning and all the wrong stuff and I apologize for that . I apologize for sinning . I apologize for hurting you ,Noah , his mom , quan, granny,my family ,myself . I apologize for all that and I rally need your help . I'm crying everyday every night and you know that already and I wish you just help me . Please I love Noah to death and idk why I treat him so wrong and hurt him . And now im scared cause he's the love of my life Jesus and quan I just need y'all him to get him back . I'm done hurting him and me . I wanna change now and I need help . I want him to forgive me and his mom and you to quan . Please imma do better . Imma get it right . We've been towhee he for two years and I wanna go on for more . Quan you sent me to him and granny you sent him to me so don't take him away from me now . Please I'm begging . I'll go to church I'll stop smoking and cussing and all the bad stuff I do and if I don't help me do it . Help me stay on the right path please . I just want you to bring him home please to me . Jesus Christ I'm begging you don't let nobody else have him please . I already feel like dieing and stupid stuff . Quan please let him think about me . Pleas let him stop hurting me and I stop hurtin him please . Can this please happen today I get him back Jesus Christ . Please let him stop bein mad at me and forgive me him and his mom . Please . I apologize for everything . Just stop all my tears and put a smile on my face please . Jesus name I pray . -AMEN