Even as i write this, i know in my heart i have not been doing what the Lord willed. I beg each reader, pray-er, to humble self as you seek His will with all your heart. Much has been the despair, anguish and pain of not following Him when you've known the right path but still strayed. May you never go thru such as an unrepentant sinner has gone thru, thinking he's been forgiven but instead sinning more. There are no words to describe, seeing you hurt your family members through your wrong choices in life. Forgive us, we pray.