God I've loved this man for two years. Its so hard to accept that its probably the best thing that we separate now, and do not marry. I realize that Bennie has been married twice before, and he is not interested in getting remarried, for fear of failure. So much so, that he believes that "there's no such thing as being happily married". And he doesn't want anymore children being that he's 49, and has three of his own. He seems ruined. But I know that you are able to help him see differently, its just that it won't be through me. Through it all though God, its feels like the worst pain I've ever experienced, short of my mothers death 12 years ago. Please help me to Accept his decision to break it off, and take away this pain. and at this time, after so many failed attempts at love, I feel afraid to try again. I am only 33. I realize it may be too late to hope for children, I pray that you help me to be content and happy alone. Because I Dont want children without marriage. And I definitely Dont want to rush into anything. God I hurt so bad. Please just help me!