I feel so lost and that God is so far away. I feel he hates me most of the time and I deserve that. I don't know which way to turn, I feel so alone. I feel no one cares, including God and I am so alone. I am struggling to go on. I don't understand why I am alive. I feel so worthless and useless. I cry to God but I doubt he hears. I don't know what to do.