Prayer Request

Please pray for me. I was supposed to be getting married in october and last august the guy left... and i know it was for the best although he was a wonderful man, but just not emotionally strong enough for me... but the problem is that now my depression has been really awful again and i miss the companionship...everyone prays for me to feel the lords presence but i dont... and honestly, i just really want to start dating the person im going to end up with... even tho i dont want to get married for a couple years now after my last experience... Im just really struggling and i try to avoid guys and just not worry about dating but every time i do that, i end up meeting someone that seems perfect and goes above and beyond for the first few weeks and than stops trying and it hurts my feelings.. it makes me feel like im not worth their effort... so i dont put up with it but it still hurts none-the-less....please pray...

I want to be content on my own and I am in therapy working thru my issues from my ex but I talk to god all the time and I feel like he has just forgotten about me and doesn’t want to acknowledge my hearts desires or even give me a peace about my situation in life… it just seems like its one struggle after the other and my ex was very helpful in keeping me grounded and assisting me when I needed to vent… but I don’t have that anymore… and I feel very empty and I try to reach out to the lord but hes just not around me.. I know he technically is but its rare that I feel him… its hard for me.. I just want a wonderful man to come find me and join me in my relationship with jesus and help encourage me in it as well… I know that maybe sounds stupid but its true…