Thank you Chris8 and Nicole!!! I really feel your kind prayers working in my day today, slowly at least the darkness is lifting from my soul, the bleak feeling that my life is cursed - I can only keep praying that Jesus is hearing your prayers for him as well..I know He is..I also know I have to accept this and love this person and accept him as Jesus would no matter what the outcome, this is so painful, I kept breaking into tears today..to find the one person you feel God truly meant for you as your mate, equally yoked and all, we had so many conversations about God and our faith- and in all other areas that two humans can be close without doing the physical things that married people do-always laughing , the only man I've ever known who accepted me completely as I am and now this awful news and discovery- I am struggling against my anger for his mother and my own still yearning for him , I need to translate that into my love for God and my acceptance of everything, you both have shown me such kindness and compassion , and he my friend, it gives me again my faith and hope to know that compassionate love of God expressed through my friends in Jesus..thank you Chris8, and also I pray in the name of God that you be blessed and that you walk every day in the grace of Him and that all souls you encounter are kind with you and that Jesus be close to you in every moment of your life, sleeping and awake, and protect you from all evil. My love is with you , and my sincere gratitude for this immense kindness. May the Lord truly bless you in all things and at all times, with all my love and heart, C.