I ask you to remember my classmates and I. There are some of us really having a hard time in the present class we are in. I just don't know what else to do. I started this educational program because this is what I still feel God wants me to do. I have given up things I really wanted to do because I had school stuff to do, and I feel like I pay the price no matter what I do. I have prayed to die and have been in church services where the message has been that we will not die until God is ready for us to. I would love to take my own life, but I don't want to go to hell. I just don't know what to pray any more.