Lord, i cant see the road ahead, i'll be 40 next year, and i am nothing.
I have always done my best. I don't lord, i have no energy to take that road, to start all over again.

i am not confident, my ailing mother is praying and hoping things will get better. For the past seven years she's been saying this Easter things will get better, this Christmas things will get better. But...

We lost our house, our name, our relatives, our respect, everything...Lord, your WILL is taking long long long time.

M tired Lord, I am clearing loans of the money taken in my name and were not for reason unknown... There is no reason to be happy or look forward to another day...

Lord that was all past... i was ready to leave that behind, but then now i see myself at a dead end.

Please Lord, show me the way. I have always stood up after so many failures and your tests don't seem to end.

My mother and I live in loneliness and don't remember when last did we have a family life.


God please show me the road ahead. I am weak, i dont have strength. My eyes are weak.

I am no more confident like i was before. i need direction, please show me the way... please give me strength...

according to your will, i have been ripped off from family life, my own house, my relatives, my community, my mom and i have been disgraced and my mom was in jail to have things your way....

i have not seen success in my life...as per your will, i am not married, i dont have a family...

I understand lord ups and downs but then neither on my work front or personal front or career wise no where... i am no where...

You have blessed me with talent but no luck ....no success...

It not that i don't sense your graces in my life. you have blessed me with things i need.


But House?Job? Career? Wife? Family? Respect?

GOD U KNOW I LOST EVERYTHING BECAUSE YOU WANTED IT YOUR WAY.

YOU KNOW I NEVER EVER TOOK UP WRONG PATH OR ....

ARE YOU AVOIDING ME ? HAS YOUR PLAN GOTTEN BACKFIRED ? TO START THINGS NOW LORD....

I READ WHO MOVED MY CHEESE? BUT THEN LORD ITS SEEMS YOU ARE NOT ONLY MOVING MY CHEESE BUT ALSO EATING IT.

ALL MY LIFE I KEPT WORKING AND WORKING LIKE MY MOM. wE WORKED AND WORKED BUT ALL U HAD WAS ANOTHER TEST ANOTHER PLAN ANOTHER IDEA...
U FORGET WE ARE HUMANS LORD, MADE OF FLESH AND BONE....

I AM DYING TO LIVE, I AM DYING TO MAKE LIFE... I TRIED MY BEST TO TAKE THINGS SENSIBLY BUT THEN

THINGS DONT SEEM TO CHANGE...

I AM LACKING ON CONFIDENCE BIG TIME LORD. YOU SAID YOUR GRACE ALONE IS ENOUGH.

yES IT IS ENOUGH, BUT THAT COVERS THE BASICS AND REGULAR LIFE. WHAT MY MOM AND I, WHO HAVE BEEN LIVING LIKE LOSERS FOR THE PAST SEVEN YEARS.

AND WHY LORD? WHY ARE WE LIVING LIKE ROBBERS? WHAT WRONG HAVE WE DONE?

LORD YOU SAY VENGEANCE IS MINE. WHY NOT LORD CAUSE I COULD SEE
LORD YOU GAVE US JUDAS... U LET US FALL INTO THE PLAN...I CRIED OUT ... I KNELT I WEPT...

WE STILL LIVE IN FEAR LORD STILL...WE DONT KNOW WHAT IS BEING HAPPY....

I CANT SEE THE ROAD AHEAD... TO TAKE UP FILM MAKING NOW LORD...HOW?

I AM SO STRESSED AND BROKEN ...I DO NOT FEEL CREATIVE EXTRAORDINARILY...

The GRIEF YOU GAVE TOOK AWAY EVERYTHING FROM US LORD... I STAND NAKED.. EVERYTHING LORD EVERYTHING...

I DONT THINK WE(MOTHER AND SON) HAVE DONE ANYTHING TO DESERVE THIS...

FORGET ALL MY WHINING LORD ... please guide me..show me the way... i am tired of losing and losing and failing and falling...

lord do you even remember the number of time i've failed...to make it easy for you lord you can check the number of times i've tasted success...

you can do anything... but....

please lord please why dont you see lord its draining its draining us...

i am tired lord.. please please please...please lord please ... you know i depend on you, completely... you know without you i am nothing... lord please lift us up from this...

please Lord please please please please please please Lord

Please show me the way.. .nights i keep calling out to you.... i am nervous, i am anxious....

please please please please Lord...