You are now possessed by the devil believing his lies. You want to give on God? Go right ahead and see for yourself what hell is like. You think your life here on earth is really bad? Do you really think if you kill yourself you will be received in heaven? NO. No murderer will end up in heaven because God is too HOLY. You are a murderer if you take your life because God created you and not the devil. You don't even owned your body it all belong to God. I am not going to pity party with you. You have a choice; heaven or hell.

May God have mercy on your soul.