All my life I have be strongly heterosexual. Men were everything to me. Constantly praying and waiting for my husband to come, and day by day growing in faith. All of the sudden the day before yesterday I had a dream that I was a lesbian and from then on I began to find women attractive. It got so bad that I couldn't even watch a tv show with a women on it. Let alone before this seeing pretty women had absolutely NO affect on me. To make it worse my strong desire for men isn't really there anymore. I am so disgusted with myself and I told GOD that if he dosent heal me to kill me because I am not stong enough to live batteling the spirit of homosexuality. I have been through pain beyond pain. Growing up I was tormented, disgusting things were done to me, my parent was on drugs, I was physically abused, verbally abused, and molested so I know pain; and that all happened during the first 20 years of my life. But this I can not handel. I am turning 21 soon, I am very young and I am willing to give up all my dreams just so I don't have to bare this. It is too painful. I despise lesbianism. And I cannot live like this I have even considered killing myself. I can't take this please pray for me. I would just rather go home to the father than live as a lesbian for the rest of me life. I just wish JESUS would heal me but if he dosent please let me come home!!!!!