My wife and I separated last year, we have a daughter together. She helped me raise a daughter that is not hers. I have full custody of MY oldest daughter because the biological mother had nothing to do with my daughter. Now that she is back and wants to be in her life my wife could not accept that, even though the courts told her she had to. We have a daughter of our own together that is 2 years younger. She would not allow me to see our biological daughter for months after our seperation. I felt the only recourse I had was to file for divorce so I could have a relationship with my youngest daughter. I did, even though I did not want to. Now, I have visitation with our daughter Ava. I miss my wife dearly. My mom has a disease and is dying. My wife hates her, and I don't understand why. My mom has been a devoted christian woman all her life and I don't understand why my soon to be ex hates her so much. It has ruined our marriage. I haven't been a perfect husband either. I drank most of our relationship. My wife and I had a church we were attending before we separated. She is now telling me about all the men she has been with or wants to be with including an old friend of mine. I don't think I can handle this anymore. I have never been the type of person that has had thoughts the way I have been lately but now these thoughts don't stop. Help.

My request is to please please pray for me. I am so lost and in pain. I want to stop drinking, I want my wife back. I need help so desperately. There is much more to this story that I have not included. I am paying a huge price for my sins. Please pray for me. Please!