My heart is broken, not because of love, but the disappointments of life. I have done two tours to Iraq and the weight of them plus everyday life is too much. I am far too tired to keep going on; day after day, failure after failure. Where is God when I need Him the most? I am done begging Him for help. Done. I give up. I just can't shake this sadness. I have begged and pleaded With Him for help, but nothing changes. If He doesn't care, then i don't care. I have been forsaken and am too tired to go on. I hope my wife and parents can find it their hearts to forgive me for what i must do.