Thank God you do not feel at home in this world or one could question your commitment to Christ. You are not of this world as you have been translated out of the Kingdom of Darkness into God's glorious Kingdom of Light by Jesus. Read the whole chapter of John. The world will hate you because you have a different Spirit. Find your friends among the believers in Yeshua (Jesus), make them your heroes and those you look up to but don't worship them because ALL human beings will ultimately fail you - only Jesus will never fail you. You fit in in the Body of Christ because you are part of it so don't say you don't fit in. You are very important to the Only One who really counts.