Oh please God! Prayers in numbers!

After a conversation with DH this morning, he has said that he is 100% sure that he is not changing his mind on not wanting more children. :( I am so deeply hurt and trying to keep my head up high for God has promised. But the pain is so great. I keep asking why do I feel the way I do? Why is the feeling so strong. I've tried pushing the feeling away and become numb but I am only fooling myself. I can't stop crying. I refuse to accept my DH's decision. I beg him to just wait 2 more years before he gets any surgery done. To let God do his work. His answer was that maybe God doesn't want us to have anymore children. That hurts even to write! I refuse to believe it.

Please help me