I cant help but think of Job when it comes to my life. Constant constant struggle. Only thing is i never had that had that happy part first...im crying and crying and nothing is happening or working. I have sacrificed EVERY SINGLE THING you could possbliy name. Every day I wake up I want to...just not wake up. I just want to dream cause my dreams are better than my reality. GOD I NEED A CALL FROM MARILYN THIS MONTH!!!! I always give my all and get used or nothing in return. Why do good people get hurt the most? SOO much false hope and I dont know why God has always put me on the back burner(to an extent). I am in soo much pain and I need help. I love God and am soo devoted. My world has shattered and if I try to pick up the piecies I get cut and bleed even more. You dont have to pray for me but I ask at least one person does....pray for me in spirit not just some repetive prayer...please....i am dead in my own heart. Mt desires for everything are gone. Thank you either way everyone.