Look i am sorry first to god and second to you all. I hear a lot of miracles happening to other people. I don't have much in my life, but I can say I have more then others or less. I am thankful for what I have even tho I am not happy of the out come. What do I mean I am on thin ice. I due drive and have two vehicles that most people don't have. Well you may say why are you complaining. The first vehicle that I drive it is cheaper in gas and I need 500.00 to fix the transmission that is going out yes again I am thankful it is still drivable and I can still get to point A toB with it. Then my back up vehicle which I am thankful to have is a van that eats gas. The only thing is with that vehicle is that I took out a 400.00 title loan that I still owe that I like to get payed off. Yes I am thankful that I have it and a chance to pay it off. With what I was saying that my mom has a nuff to handle earyler in my replys. I am on my moms insurance policy and she also takes care of my rent. Yes I am thankful that I have a mom that is doing that, because most moms and dad will not. I have a part time job just enough to put food and gas in my vehicle to get to work. And again yes I am thankful for a job because they are hard to come by and alot of people without work. So you all are probably saying what is wrong with you. Well here is the answer I feel like I am a dead beat. I can't say that I am a dad because I have no kids. I am a 42 man and feel like a kid. All I what is to live a normal life and be happy with a family. I love doing lawn and just gave my bussness up because I did not have the help or the equipment. My checking account if overdrawn 300.00 know and i am going to lose another paycheck if I don't get it strait before my next direct deposit. I wish I could get a loan to get my self togetter and find money a lot to give back to my mom which she lossed a lot from my to brothers and now I feel as a christian taking money from her. I see her hurting and that is why I am down and hurting to because I should be taking care of mom not mom taking care of me. My mom is not going to be around for ever so I need to get my life togetter and before she goes I want her saved and to when she goes that all her sons did not do her dirty and use her. I am the only christian in this family that is trying to hold it togetter and it is hard. I am just getting upset with my prayers not being answed. I need a miracle and a breakthrow. But again I am sorry and I hope all that read this understands what i am saying but if you were in my shoes and thoughts you would see the big picture. I am thankful for what i have but I just want to be a man and take care of what I have not have my mother take care of a grown man.

(09-06-2012 04:55 AM)thomas1969 Wrote:  I did not say that i did not want the help because i do need help

(09-06-2012 03:53 AM)Guest Wrote:  Praise the Lord...looks like your getting it on a silver platter...if you wont take the offer i will...i love to fly & just returned on a jet from a great trip...Halleluia & if im still able would love to work for anyone, thing that has to do with travel....but age & health seem to be a factor. Long ago i had to raise my child alone & when i ask my church for help they just returned some of my tithes back to me...your church should help you regardless....i will cont. to pray for you...God Blesses even when we dont deserve it....this seems to be your time PRAISE HIM...AMEN!