Jude, I pray for you in the Powerful Name of Yeshua (Jesus) that the Lord will deliver you from this lying spirit! The Scripture says that "there has no sin taken you but that is common to man." In other words, this is a sin like any other that you can be delivered and set free from. God will certainly forgive you and you can go free from this if you are really sincere in your heart and want to be free with all your being. The enemy lies to us about many things, just as he has from the beginning of time. It is up to us to study and believe God"s Word (the Bible) and not give any credence to the enemy. Praying for you in the Name of Jesus!