Husband was a preacher but is not where he should be with the Lord. He went and paid for sex from a massage place about a year ago and I can't seem to get over it. I'm not allowed to discuss it so it tears at me from the inside. I really believe he is faithful now but can't help to be insecure. I want the peace of God on both of us. I think about leaving everyday but that is not what I really want. I want healing.