Dear R.C., I am praying for you and asked the Holy Spirit to help your struggles. God is a forgiving God as long as you repent. Ask the Holy Spirit for guidance, he is there with you. Feed your spirit with the Word of God and choose a Godly friends and not wordly people. I am happy for you that you are trying and repenting. Yes, God will help you change and don't doubt. Read the Bible everyday and memorize verses about God's will for your life. Ask God to use you for His glory. This simple prayer is very powerful, God will answer right away. God bless you my friend and don't give up.