Dear God, I don't want to feel this pain. I need help. I did a terrible thing. I have been cheating on my husband for the past year with a very wonderful man who has given me everything that was lacking in my marriage. I know what I have done is wrong in the eyes of God and I am begging his forgiveness but I also need help. The pain I am feeling is beyond words. I miss Duck with all my heart. I broke it off two days ago. I couldn't bear to hurt my husband and my family any further (they never knew) and I also couldn't bear to hurt Duck anymore . He desperately wants a family and he had hopes of the two of us being together and I shattered his hopes now and he too is in a great deal of pain. I know what I did was wrong but I am trying to make it right for everyone now. I want to try and save my marriage. We have one daughter and a 30 year history and he doesn't deserve what I have done to him no matter what he has done to me. We have been struggling in our marriage for 10 years. I am just asking for prayers - prayers for me that my pain will soon ease. I am unable to eat much or sleep. Prayers for Duck that he can get over me and move on with his life and find someone who can give him what I could not. And prayers for my marriage and my husband. That we can find love again. Please help me - this is all too much to bear right now. Thank you.