I once felt the same way as a youth. I thought there was no hope for tomorrow. But, I found a Savior, that truly saved my life. I will share one of my poems that I pray will help you through this storm.

"A Saviors Love"

Here I sit my heart so low, My mind drifts like blowing snow.
I look at my life of long ago, How I roamed the earth to and fro.
I searched this planet from sea to sea, Trying to find a love made just for me.
One day I was given a big black book, I laid it on the table
without really giving it a look.
But, one day in dispair, I picked up the book. It told me of a Savior's love.
This love was as pure as a snow white dove.
Now when I'm feeling alone or blue, I call on My Savior, He knows just what to do.
After reading this book, I found out who loved me the most.
It's always been my heavenly Host.

Study God's Word and be encouraged that He knows what is best for you.
Allow the Holy Spirit to guide you and strengthen you in all of your decisions.