I stopped cutting myself back in February or March and I was doing so well. But I was so upset yesterday that I cut myself again with a razor, 13 times on my upper arm. I feel like a failure. I promised myself and my boyfriend I would never do it again, but I just lost it yesterday and I was so depressed. I feel like God is disappointed too, and I don't want my boyfriend to find out I did it again, but I also want to stop doing it, but it is just so hard.