Father God, I am feeling so defeated. I need your guidance. I need to feel your presence in my life especially right now. I feel so alone and don’t see an end. My family is in jeopardy and I don’t know what to do. Fred told me he doesn’t want me anymore and he doesn’t want to be that guy. My heart feels like it has been ripped out of my body. We have been really put to the test the last few months with Cameron and his problems. I don’t know this will affect Kay or Cam. Kay doesn’t have hardly anything to with her real dad and now she won’t have Fred. I am a better mom to Cam than his mother and he will tell you that. I don’t want us to fail or fail our children anymore. They deserve us to be happy and whole and so do we a couple. I pray you find a way to reach Fred and fix his problems mentally and physically. In Jesus name…Amen