God is always with you but you are just preoccupied with "self". God put you there to be of service to others. Thank Him and praise Him because He is faithful. He is not a liar like the devil. Have faith and believe in the most High our Father in heaven. Happiness in whatever you are doing starts within your spirit, no one else can make you happy but yourself and knowing God is with you. I pray that you get saved in the name of our Lord Jesus and have a personal relationship with Him and not just saying "I know Him" when in fact you really don't know all about Him and who He is. Believing that there is God is not good enough and you will always live a defeated life.