Deuteronomy 4:31 (FOR THE LORD THY GOD IS A MERCIFUL GOD;) HE WILL NOT FORSAKE THEE,NEITHER DESTROY THEE,NOR FORGET THE COVENANT OF THY FATHERS WHICH HE SWARE UNTO THEM. God didn't promise us Christians that the road would be easy. My husband was laid off from his job Friday.He lost his mother two years ago just two weeks after the birth of our fourth son ( she never saw him).His father died fifteen years ago.But through this all he looks to God for his strength.He could worry about how he will support our family,but he looks to God for everything. PSALMS 121:1 & 2 I WILL LIFT UP MINE EYES UNTO THE HILLS,FROM WHENCE COMETH MY HELP.MY HELP COMETH FROM THE LORD,WHICH MADE HEAVEN AND EARTH. God has a plan for you.He has a plan for us all.Instead of wanting to die,why don't you try to further God's kingdom.Be a witness,a light,let some lost sinner see God through you.Don't let Satan get glory.Let God have all the Glory. Your children need to be able to see God through you.You told them of God,let them see you live for God.Always trying to further His Kingdom. Proverbs17:22 A MERRRY HEART DOETH GOOD LIKE MEDICINE:BUT A BROKEN SPIRIT DRIETH THE BONES. Pray for a renewing spirit,a closer walk with Jesus. He loves you and needs you to be a witness,a prayer warrior,or whatever needs done for Him.My family will pray for you and others here will too. There is power in prayer.