God will assist you, trust in him. Remember that when you are at your lowest you are subject to attack, which is exactly what is happening now. You are our brother and we love you very much. God is the key, my brother. There is nothing too difficult for God to repair. You must put your trust in him fully, only he knows whats best for you. I am incapable of always making the right decisions, I must give it over to Him as he always knows the way. Trust in Him and know that I am praying for you. You are loved.