Im a 45 yr old man that has lost my father 3 yrs ago,his busness burt to the ground 2 yrs ago,small family owned busness since 1921. i raised my kids myself and i told them about god they are going down the wrong road daily.my mother isnt in good health,i seek and talk to god every day,he dosent here my cries.i want to DIE,im so alone in life,i dont know how to take care of myself if it wasnt for my mother.my job isnt doing so well with most jobs falling in town..ive prayed so hard for years for a soulmate,one to help take care of me. i wish every day god would take me away