Everyone, several things i have been praying for for well over ten years and God still has not answered those prayers. I have lived the most excruciated most unfair Christian life out of anyone. For one thing I want god to ease up on me. I want him to make things better in my life. I want him to allow things to get better. I want god to make good things happen in my life. I want god to allow good things to happen. I want less trial and tribulation. bad things keep happening to me for doing good and for serving the lord. i feel like god is totally ignoring me. i feel like god doesnt want anything to do with me. i have done absolutely nothing wrong. i sin every day like the rest of god's people world-wide. but i have not committed any sin or a number of sins bad enough to get god to ignore me and not want anything to do with me. what i really want from god right now is to make me mentally and spiritually stable and right. i want god to help me get a new job NOW and to help me keep that job. i try so hard to reason with god, to work things out with him, to cooperate with him, NOTHING. i am mentally and spiritually burned out. if god hates me so much, then why in the world did he even put me here to start with?!!? it wasnt my idea to be brought into this world. i have turned my back on god numerous times because of the royally screwed up excruciated unfair christian life god has allowed me to live. i have become unsaved again atleast twice turning my back on god and becoming agnostic on purpose. if the lord wants me to have anything to do with him, to continue going to church, to continue my personal devotional time, to give him the praise, and to serve him by reaching out to people, my DJ ministry, and to serve him in every way that there is to serve him, then he needs to start answering some prayers, unanswered prayers that i've been praying for well over ten years. like i say, no one has ever lived the most unfair excruciated christian life that i have lived. i want out of this life and i want god to make my life better and i want it done right now. i've earned it. no christian man or woman deserves to live like this. its just uncalled for. its not fair and its not right. the main prayer requests i have out of this is i ask all of you to pray for me to get a new job VERY soon asap as quickly as possible and that god helps me to keep the job, for my DJ ministry that god has called me to reaching out to the lost at secular night clubs, and finally that god will change me mentally, emotionally, psychologically, psyciatrically and spiritually. these last few months i have been pleading with the lord for a mental and spiritual reformation. i need it and i need it from god right now. please pray. much appreciated.