I have a prayer request and just want some warriors in with me. Its very late and I'm needing to get to bed but I need to post this. I am a virgin, but was molested as a kid for a while. I am in my 20s and I was told that when that happens your body responds in a way it's not ready and things can trigger that kind of reaction with your private areas. For a long time seems like i have watched pornagraPhy to have those feelings and have craved that kind of pleasure at odd times. It's something I hate and don't want but at times it's the only thing I do want. This is the harder thing I've ever had to write and I want this out of my heart and life. I want to be a pure wife in the sense actually always wanting to save myself ( with my choice) for my husband but am sinning completely by doing this. Besides what was forced on me I have never been intimate w a guy and have prayed and prayed for this devil to go away and to banish these thoughts from my head. I feel disgusted everytime I'm done watching and it's like I just want that high pleasure then I feel the sin all over me and that I've shamed God. Prayers are so welcomed please!