Dearest One, I have felt many times as you feel now, but these trials came to only make me strong, as they will you. Read God's Word, especially the Psalms of King David. He also felt as you feel. He said, "Oh, that I had the wings of a dove and I would fly away to another place" just to get away from the pain and the hurt that life can bring. Yet, David was beloved of God, as you are. Please don't give in to the lies of the evil one. Trust In the Lord always, read and study His Holy Word and pray and fast if necessary. You will overcome through Yeshua (Jesus). Because He lives, you can face tomorrow, even if it seems uncertain. We can all face it because He lives, He loves us, so much that He died for us and Rose Again! Praise God! Rise up in God, my brother! You are more than a conqueror through Christ! He even overcame the grave! Amen.