I have not been able to get on here so often as God has opened up the doors of providence and I now have a full time job - not one month while I did not work, or was working part time was I not able to pay the bills - not one month. God has been with me and yes, has asked me change stuff in my life that needed changing. It is hard, but worth it. He has called me into obedience and convicts me on occassion. I have really broken free from a lot of that which held me back. Someone on this site also told me to place C at the foot of the cross and in so doing, I have felt a peace. Sure, I pray for him daily, but I leave him to God. I beleive God is working in C, just like he is working in me. We both have to be obedient to HIM and to place HIM first in our lives before God brings us back together again. So, I want to say to those who struggle..........I know what it is like to struggle, I know how hard it is to wait, I know how hard it is to think you have no answered prayers, but I can assure you if you want HIM to, God will work, little by little each day and he knows how each one of us thinks. It is in the strangest ways, that the word comes to me (bumper stickers, advertisments, people quoting a word, etc) to help me when I cry out.

So Father, I thank you for being my Dad. Help me to ensure and change me into the woman you want me to be. Father God, help me to be patient and to wait for the promise you spoke to me to come into being.

AMEN