Some days are hard. I praise God and he is at the centre of my life yet I grow tired. I pray for C and for him to be healed from all that afflicts him. I keep on as I believe you are to pray without ceasing but it has been such a long time. I know that time to God is different to our time. I know I need patience. I know that I need to trust HIM. I believe it is God's plan and have even prayed for God to take this burden off me if it is not to be, but it grows stronger. I grow tired. It has been well over a year of daily prayer. The enemy is all around me and making me doubt what I believe you have spoken to me. No-one believes me that you have said it will all come together. They laugh at me. I want to testify your greatness, I want to show them the power of prayer and that nothing is impossible. Father so much was taken so very much.

Father I know you hear all prayer. I ask that you breakthrough as nothing is impossible for you. I ask that if it is not to be that you take this burden off me, I am sorry that I doubt, I am sorry I am faltering. My heart is just broken and I am tired. Father God, why is this on my heart when I see no change, in fact I see the opposite. Father God, help me, I need answers and I need hope. Father have mercy on me. Please speak into this for me.

Thank you Father, in the name of Jesus. AMEN.