Imy fiance broke up with me on valentines day because I caught him talking to a girl through a video chat. I have been very depressed and deeply hurt by this I went out drinking ended up binge drinking and had been a mess I said alot of hurtful things to the group of people That I was with i know it was wrong being a christian to go out and drink with my roomate and her friends to try and rid myself of pain I ended up losing the friendship i had between my roomate and her bestrfiend and they do not talk to me and are ruining my reputation im in college and i am really stressed out and have not been eating my ex- fiance refuses to communicate with me as to why he did what he did and why he left i feel so lost I realized that being 18 and engaged is very young and how I wanted to transfer closer to home back to NY where im from and leave Pennsylvania just pray that I will continue to follow gods will and that i will let go of the pain i have and focus on school pray that the friendships ive had with these girls be healed or at least where the girl doesnt continue to have death threats sent after me I am in bad shape And I want to find my way back to the lord.