In order to ask for continued prayer I need to explain all that took place. It started in 2001 when my wife and I first got together. Two years later, I lost my job. After going to the VA hospital I was put on mood stabilizers. Over the years, rather than stabilizing my moods, it made them worse with rage entering the picture. Along with this, after losing my job I hid behind the computer and started losing myself in pornography. I no longer spent any time with my wife and she's walked in on me more than once viewing porn and masturbating. Things continued to spiral out of control as I remained rebellious to God. It finally came to a head last week when we fought and I hurt her physically for the first time. I was arrested on the 23rd and attempted to commit suicide. I was stopped and afterwards turned my heart to God. I've been in constant prayer with him since then. I've met with a pastor and will begin counseling. I've stopped the mood stabilizers and removed the computers from my life completely (having my wife pick them up so they are out of the house). My prayer request is twofold: I want God to make permanent change in my life so I am a God-fearing, gentle man absent of any thoughts of hostility or anger, free from any distractions that would take me away from facing life and giving the proper attention to my wife. The second is this: that healing come to my wife and God's healing power repair our marriage. I know it's not too late. God has given me numerous signs that he doesn't want this marriage to end. All things are possible. I need to know God's love so fully that I can give the love that overflows to others, primarily and foremost my wife. My wife's name is Stacey and mine is Marc. Please pray continuously for us? Thank you from the bottom of my heart. One last thing: I'm not glad my wife was hurt. However, I am glad things came to the point they did because I never would have desired to or made the steps to change that I have. God permitted me to come to the point I did so he could literally bring me back from the dead. Now pray that the changes bear the fruit he wants. ~Marc~