I am asking for prayer for my emotional stability. I struggle with borderline personality disorder. Everything is about me and my feelings and getting other people to understand me and my feelings. I hate it. It is selfish and sinful and yet I am consumed by it so often. I suffered abuse as a child and plenty of rejection, but that was a long time ago. It still plagues me though it was years ago. I believed for awhile that God has healed me. I have a husband who rips open old wounds and I know that he doesn't want to, but I am so sensitive that it drives him crazy. I am blamed for his behavior towards me. I know that he has his own sinful issues, but I also know that this giant "Amber fest" also really is driving him crazy. I just read that low self esteem can be another form of pride. Pride says, "look at me". This disorder says, "understand me, listen to me, love me, don't leave me.. me.. me .. me..." I believe very much in Jesus, and for awhile I thought that I have defeated this disorder. But now I am starting to believe that this disorder is sin based and I am feeling even more discouraged and defeated. Even talking about it is puting the focus on me and not on God where it belongs. Please pray for me to overcome myself and keep my focus on God where it belongs. Not my own emotions that I allow to control me and destroy relationships. The only thing that is going to work is prayer, so please PLEASE pray for me. Counseling will just focus more on me. Jesus *sigh*. Thank you for loving me and forgiving me. I am nothing without you. I am certainly doomed without you. You are the best thing/person that I have ever allowed into my life and my heart. You hear my cry and I thank you. Please don't allow the enemy to mess with my mind anymore. Please heal my marriage and help me to stop shoving myself and my emotions/thoughts/opinions down his throat. He is a good man and I love him, and I know that he adores me. Thank you for him Daddy. Please don't let me destroy our relationship. I love you Father. Please help me overcome this selfishness and this pride. Help me to see others as more important than myself. And please take away the fear that lives in me. The fear that controls me so often. I love you so much Daddy. I love you. Please forgive me, help me to forgive myself, but most of all destroy my sin and help me turn away from it. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen.

I will pray for you but first i think you need to stop being so hard on your self. You have a mental health disorder and it isn't easy to deal with issues of this kind. ( i too have suffered and still do). Your husband should be understanding and help support you and not judge you for it. Everybody goes through selfish times its a human trait. With the correct help it can easily be controlled.

In the name of jesus christ our saviour we pray lord that you look down and hear your child's cry's, Give her the love and guidence in her life that she need's, Show her the love and support that only you can. thank you lord, Amen.

Dear Lord,please have mercy on them.Please help them to shutdown any door of evil from their lives.Please lead them on Your way.Please help them to believe and know the Truth.We are in spiritual warfare.Please give them wisdom. Please help them to trust in Your Love.Please send comfort to Amberella.Please bring healing in her heart,mind and soul.Please fill Amberella mind and heart with Your light.
You are the King of kings and Your Name is Wonderful.
Thank You my Lord.

Sister, I pray that The Lord heals you, heals your heart, your past hurts and blesses all of your relationships and Marriage. The Lord tells us to love our neighbor the way we love ourselves! There is nothing wrong with you wanting your pain to end, nothing is selfish about that. if anything it's the enemy making you feel guilty for wanting to be healed. The Lord wants you to be well, you to be happy, you to be ok, you have to know that He wants us to cry to HIM. Our Savior was not being selfish when He prayed to Our Father in tears before His Passion, He was showing us that is what we are supposed to do and I know you cry to HIM but don't feel bad about it. Don't feel guilty. We all need Jesus and to be healed from something. He wants us to need Him and He wants you to be well. All of your prayers are being answered. You are loved. Just know that and stop beating yourself up, you are amazing and made in His Image and Likeness. The Lord doesn't want us to be prideful, true, but you aren't prideful, you just want to be well. Nothing is sinful about that. Please let us know when your prayers are answered. All is well says The Lord.